Why wearing this Crimson Beherit

It reminds me of my suffering. I put my heart and soul into my creations, but my mental struggles seem to worsen as my work improves. Every brushstroke takes a little bit of my life away.

At this point, my mental state is still unable to recover enough for me to paint again.

What feels missing in my heart seems to be the main reason my entire being isn’t functioning properly.

I know that despite having a happy life, one day it will turn into sadness in twofold.